Good news, bad news

I have a (not great, low paying) job that is not in my field. I was holding out hope for a position I interviewed for a few weeks ago, but I just got a rejection phone call for that job today, so I accepted the other position.

I don’t even know anymore. At this point, it’s pretty clear that I’m not cut out for environmental ed/interpretation. I’ll always support and volunteer for EE and interp programs, but it’s obvious that it’s not going to be a career. I feel horrible for wasting my advisor’s time, funding, and resources for two years, but I don’t know what more I can do to get hired. I have a master’s degree and I can’t even get an Americorps or camp counselor position. I have a good resume and good references, so the problem lies in my interview skills and presentation. I really think it’s just time for me to move on and find something else. I’m pretty disappointed with myself and disillusioned with my career path, but there has to be some field out there that I can do well and contribute to. For now, I’m really grateful that I have a job that will help pay the bills and give me some breathing room while I figure thing out.

bedbugsbiting:

kiss0flife:

accurate

Me. Except the “student” part.

bedbugsbiting:

kiss0flife:

accurate

Me. Except the “student” part.

curiousgeorgiana:

phenomenon-intervention:

salviprince:

This asshole.

See, this is what’s going on here: Colbert thinks he’s making fun of Washington Redskins’ owner Dan Snyder and his open letter announcing a new charity to “make a real, lasting positive impact on Native American quality of life,” all the while defending the team’s name. With this little quip (which was also featured as a segment on his show, apparently), Colbert and his liberal white audience believe themselves to be SO OBVIOUSLY above and beyond racism to the point where they can ironically deploy racist slurs to ostensibly insult fellow white people’s ignorance, oblivious to the very real and still quite literal hurt that those slurs continue to evoke for its targets. Because, you see, the joke is not for Asian people. Here, Asians are just collateral damage in the service of white liberals enjoying the freedom to mock the people they deem the REAL racists (by racially mocking the people racists supposedly mock, funny how that works). And according to Colbert’s supporters, Asian people should understand that our role here is to swallow our discomfort and be appreciative that our pain was used as a comedic device for the greater goal of self-congratulatory “progressive” white entertainment.

I’ve seen a lot of well thought out arguments on the satire of it that made me question my initial disgust. But I watched it live and the audience reaction…the laughing…they were laughing at the slurs. The racist caricature. Not the argument against owner Dan Snyder. Which is NOT what Colbert intended, I’m sure, but that was the effect.
As with all things—intent isn’t worth shit.

curiousgeorgiana:

phenomenon-intervention:

salviprince:

This asshole.

See, this is what’s going on here: Colbert thinks he’s making fun of Washington Redskins’ owner Dan Snyder and his open letter announcing a new charity to “make a real, lasting positive impact on Native American quality of life,” all the while defending the team’s name. With this little quip (which was also featured as a segment on his show, apparently), Colbert and his liberal white audience believe themselves to be SO OBVIOUSLY above and beyond racism to the point where they can ironically deploy racist slurs to ostensibly insult fellow white people’s ignorance, oblivious to the very real and still quite literal hurt that those slurs continue to evoke for its targets. Because, you see, the joke is not for Asian people. Here, Asians are just collateral damage in the service of white liberals enjoying the freedom to mock the people they deem the REAL racists (by racially mocking the people racists supposedly mock, funny how that works). And according to Colbert’s supporters, Asian people should understand that our role here is to swallow our discomfort and be appreciative that our pain was used as a comedic device for the greater goal of self-congratulatory “progressive” white entertainment.

I’ve seen a lot of well thought out arguments on the satire of it that made me question my initial disgust. But I watched it live and the audience reaction…the laughing…they were laughing at the slurs. The racist caricature. Not the argument against owner Dan Snyder. Which is NOT what Colbert intended, I’m sure, but that was the effect.

As with all things—intent isn’t worth shit.

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Opinion: Debunking the pathology of poverty

aljazeeraamerica:

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Good things are happening!

Last week I got two rejection letters in one day and I was in a funk for the rest of the week. I decided to stop seeking employment in my field and started focusing my efforts on finding an entry level job that would be willing to train me. My long term plan was (and likely still is) was to change fields, get my CNA, and start working on my BSN.

Today I got a phone call about a position I applied for well over a month ago. I assumed that it was filled and was expecting another rejection letter, but I’m interviewing for it next week. It’s a seasonal position, but it would let me pay some bills, contribute to rent and groceries, and save up for a CNA course. I really hope I don’t blow this interview. I have over a week to prepare, and I have my awesome new(ish) suit, and I have complete confidance that I can do the job.

I’m still planning on going to the state employment office this week, but it’s nice to feel less desperate than I did a week ago.

Deal of the Day

I found an Express suit at Goodwill for $20. I’ve never owned a suit and I’ve been trying to cobble together appropiate job interview outfits from my meager supply of trousers and cardigans. I look and feel ten times more professional with a suit, and I’m planning on wearing it tomorrow when I go to the state employment office for job search resources.

sgtsquishy:

bootylicious-buggy:

krazykat-minionofmisha:

queerlittlelady:

Oh my god my heart actually exploded from this happiness.

Omg the last gif it waved back omg

So many people always seem to forget just how intelligent elephants are.

the elephant drew the other elephant.

THE ELEPHANT ACTUALLY DREW THE OTHER MOTHERFUCKIN ELEPHANT 

(via utterlyfubar)

Just keep going :)
Thank you! I’m getting there. I really just needed to motivate myself to get off of tumblr and finish a particularly long job application, and now it’s almost done. And predictably, it was less difficult that I thought it would be :)

I haven’t been posting much at all lately because I’m feeling really, truly shitty about the fact that I’m still unemployed. I know that a lot of people are in the same boat and that I’m probably taking this more personally than is healthy, but I’m entering panic mode. I need a job. Any job. As soon as possible.

Lately it’s taken all of my energy to stay on top of my job applications and daily tasks, which hasn’t left much energy for tumbling. On top of that, I don’t like that my posts have been so negative. I want to write about more positive things, but this is also pretty much my only outlet where I don’t have to project faux positivity over everything. Anyway, with all that in mind, here is a list of positive things that make me happy. This is mostly for my own perspective, so feel free to scroll on by.

I completed all of my UFYH tasks that I scheduled for yesterday.
I waxed my own eyebrows for the first time and while they’re not perfect, they’re also not hideous.
I’m working on three very exciting volunteer projects, two of which are directly related to my field.
I’m actively taking (baby) steps to improve my physical and mental health.
In the same vein, I’m getting myself out of the apartment more frequently.
Even though I really don’t want to, I’m going to get off tumblr and do a few 20/10s on job applications, and I will feel better for it.